Waiting

Mendon and I are both waiting on jobs. Mendon has an interview on Monday, and the waiting and pacing that has gone on this week over it have been impressive. I found out that I'm still in the runnings for the job for which I'd interviewed nearly two weeks ago. (The interviews were finished only 1 week ago, so the silence is forgivable). I was almost disappointed when I heard that the decision is narrowed to me and one other person - how terrible to have to keep wondering and waiting! I just want an answer - I just want employment, too, but that seemed secondary last night.

With all of this waiting, Mendon and I have been in full force doing our best to get the phone to ring. We leave the apartment for walks, we do laundry, I practice violin, we make other phone calls, we watch movies; we do every single thing we can think of that would either cause us to miss the calls, or would make the calls the truest of inconveniences. We play games, we go to the grocery store, the bank, we go up to the clay studio, to walmart (seriously, this is how bad it is), to the local clothing donation drop off. It makes me nuts to wait like this. It makes me think of a book that I read, Waiting, by Ha Jin. It was one of the hardest books that I've ever had to read. I read it in my "Signs of Suffering" class - which we just called our Suffering Class - to put it in perspective, perhaps.

The other thing that I've been quite excited about is that I have an appointment some time in June with a local business owner who is interested in buying some of the jewelry that I've made. Back way over a year ago, I decided that I should sell my jewelry, and I even went into the store, asked about it and got a card. I promptly went home, got scared again (because what if they don't like it?!), and hid the card from view. I've been so on again off again with the courage to sell my jewelry that it's been ridiculous. So I finally realized that Mendon and I were completely unemployed, and that we were getting ready to move, to buy furniture, to pay the first and last months rent, the security deposit, the moving truck rental company, our super for rent, etc. etc. that acceptance seemed to matter little, and I mustered up the businesswoman who hides very well in the recesses of my mind. I also find it amusing that I've been quite inspired to make jewelry now that I know that there is a likely profit at the end of the rainbow month.

Somewhere, some how, Mendon and I will manage the move, and we'll let you know once everything falls together.

Until then, here are pictures of my favoritest socks to date. Finished them last night.