Chemo Brain
That is what my cancer support group calls it; Daddy calls it Gemzar Brain. Same thing and it has to do with brain fog.
So what leads to this entry? Well, I thought I was losing my mind. I have a cute tin that Rachael had given me with some soap in it years ago. I used the soap and filled the tin with my knitting tools: folding scissors, needle caps, measuring tape, stitch markers. I use it all the time. I can not knit without it. Well, I can, but I run into problems, like nothing to cut my yarn with or knitting, knitting, knitting and not knowing when to stop.
I was knitting last week on my purple top. (Purple is my new color. I have been attracted to it for a while and now knowing that it is the color of the ribbon for pancreatic cancer cements the attraction.) I had gotten to the point where I needed to measure to see when to stop . . . and I couldn't find my little tool kit! Anywhere! It was so frustrating.
I looked everywhere. In all my knitting bags (by the sofa -- four), under the sofa, under the sofa cushions, on the coffee table, because I remembered that that was the last place I had used it. Nowhere! Daddy looked -- in all the same places, just to be sure. We even checked the dining room and the mantelpiece. Nothing.
Then I was on the phone with Mensch last night, and he started to talk about a knitting gift and I heard Kristen say, in the background, 'bag' and then I remembered! I had put the little tool tin in yet another knitting bag (which was not in the living room) to take to Barb TQ's to work on my knit pancreas! It was there, lost no longer. But . . .
I couldn't find my glasses. Yes, the ones that hang on a chain around my neck, those. Well, the good news is, I found those this morning. So I can see and I can knit and I can see to knit. Chemo brain is conquered! For now.
Comments
I am grateful for the little bird what hepped Mama find her little knittin' tin. I could quite possibly begin to call other people who irritate me a 'little knittin' tin' in the future. But I digress from my being happy she has found all her gemzar mittens.
Posted by: papa | April 22, 2006 6:47 PM
I think I've lost about half my knitting supplies. Three of my Denise needles and two of the cords have definitely disappeared for long enough that I doubt their return. Lately I've gone to blaming the exhaust on my car (which has needed fixing for over a month)-- Carbon-monoxide has ruined my memory, and lace knitting has used up all my concentration abilities--I'm allowed to be scatter-brained now, right?
Posted by: Valerie | April 22, 2006 8:36 PM