Sorry I am a day late
Not to worry. The internet was down. I called SBC, Nathan, and they got me hooked back up, but we detoured the airport. I'll have to talk to you to get it set back up, but at least we have access again.
Well, April has been delayed due to the cold. Yes, I didn't receive my 4th treatment and this one will be tacked on the end. And, no, I don't think I caught this cold from Mendon and Kristen. a) Neither of them were/are sick. b) I was fighting this off before they arrived. It sort of hit Sunday night, but it had been around before that.
So, here is the deal. My white blood cell count was up to 5 (Yes, amazing! 10 times what it had been. I think it is because my body is trying to fight off this cold, maybe? I don't really know) but they didn't give me my chemo because I felt sort of lousy and I would just feel worse -- or at least, that is what the nurse said. She also told me to call the dr this morning, which I did, but he still hasn't called back. I ran a bit of a temp last night (100.0) but the on-call felt I didn't need to go in because my white blood cell count was pretty high. So we wait, and see.
I guess this is the end of me trying to be 'normal'. I'm not. I can't make this go away by just plowing ahead. I have to figure out a new approach. One that will keep me living and wanting to live. I mean, I can stay alive if I isolate myself, but who wants to live like that? Not me. Not even for a short time.
Comments
I must admit, Mendon's post, in light of yours, is sort of odd. ("I find you abnormal" one :-))
Have you and Daddy reconnected with the Gathering Place at all? Now might be a good time. They may be able to help you understand what you're going through - not only physically, but emotionally. Your new approach is out there. You know this because you are not the first person to have cancer and Daddy isn't the first person whose spouse has had cancer. Anyway, I know I can't answer this for you (not that you were asking) and I think they may. I can also relate to the "can't make it go away by just plowing ahead". Know what my approach is, apparently? "I don't like this stuff, so every fiber of my being will fight these emotions and thoughts and circumstances." Know what I get? Migraines. Yeah, so, I'm right there with you on the 'new approach' wagon.
Posted by: Mara | January 13, 2006 1:26 AM
Well, either your count just returned to normal itself, or your body is fighting the cold. Either way, it is good (so says Andre).
Will they do this treatment next week, or after the rad/chemo combo? How many more Gemzar treatments did you have before the combo? Was this the last one? Will they just go right into the rad/chemo treatment?
Posted by: Mara | January 13, 2006 4:24 AM
Hey, Maman! I'll give you a call tonight to figure out how to reconnect the Airport.
I want to know what Mara wants to know, too; doesn't the radiation start next week? Are they going to go straight to radiation + 5FU + Gemzar, or are they going to do straight Gemzar?
I'm glad your white blood cell count is back up; didn't Daddy say that between 4 and 11 is normal?
I love you, Maman.
Posted by: Nathan Dornbrook | January 13, 2006 11:15 AM
I'll do my best to answer. We haven't connected with the Gathering Place yet, though we talked about it. And with Daddy's classes starting next week, I don't quite know when we will. I should get my Gemzar next week because by then I think my cold will be pretty much gone and my WBC (white bloodcell count) should be still up. This will delay my radiation by another week, so it will start on Feb 20th instead of the 13th. I still should be having 3 Gemzars treatments before the radiation and 2 weeks off inbetween. And I won't get Gemzar during radiation. Did I miss anything?
Posted by: Ma | January 13, 2006 2:29 PM