Inside My Head
I think that sometimes I have so much going on inside my head that some of you would be stunned at how much time I just spend thinking about things - most of them utterly inconsequential, of course.
Let's see. Instead of sharing in depth these thoughts, here's a list:
1. Babies (my coordinator would be horrified to see that at the top of the list! Of course, it's nice to know he likes me enough to want me to be around for a while.)
2. What's next? (which includes babies, but also: where will we go when we leave Israel? What kind of work will I do? What will Mark do? Will he go back to school? Will I go back to school?)
3. What's for dinner?
4. We're co-facilitating a moral leadership course ... ah! me? a moral leader? am I person who likes the idea, but would rather leave it to somebody else to DO? (err, yes, very much so) Do I feel stupid when I'm in front of people & they don't get what I'm saying because I haven't explained it effectively? YES! Ah! Did I do that last week? YES! Do I want to show my face ever again in that class? AGH! NO! Is it tomorrow? YES! AGH!
5. Erg, neighbor is trying to overtake some of our property - gah! Don't want to deal with it!
6. Dead tree in back yard... I think it's dealt with. I hope so.
7. Felt I was treated disrespectfully by someone here. It's the Baha'i World Centre. This does not feel good. How do I deal with this? Do I share the responsibility? Was I rude to her? If I go to her coordinator (it was in a work capacity), what would the result be? Confrontation, and then she'd be upset? What am I seeking to get out of this? Can't I just kick her in the shins and be done with it? [hahaha, I'm sorry, I just had a vision of the days when I used to work with some inner city girls and how they dealt with interpersonal issues! hahahah!]
8. Am I just drifting? What am I doing to grow? Develop? Become a better person? What could I be doing differently?
9. Do I dress well enough at work?
10. Do my co-workers like me?
11. Is the laundry ready?
12. What do I think about?
13. Is it time for lunch?
Just some thoughts. :-)
Comments
I'm fairly hammered at the moment, and it's a ridiculous hour, but I just wanted to take a moment to declare my undying love for Carol Forbes.
I wish she was not so far away...
Posted by: Nathan Dornbrook | June 4, 2004 01:28 AM
Ahh. Now I understand why you can't feel your lips.
Posted by: Mara | June 4, 2004 06:52 AM
Does anyone have a digital camera handy to record the moment?
Posted by: Maman | June 4, 2004 04:35 PM
mara, I have this great DVD by Wanda Sykes where she goes through that EXACT SAME ROUTINE of what do women think about. It is COMPLETELY hilarious. so maybe you should *think* about a career in standup! PS: I consider myself a coworker of yours and I really love you!
Posted by: V | June 6, 2004 02:08 PM
Okay, I think my family members are now all sitting in shock that someone would suggest I go into comedy... :-)
Thank you!! Also, thanks for not getting concerned that my comments might be about you... phew. As if!! Of course, you know the situation I'm talking about...
Posted by: Mara | June 6, 2004 02:29 PM
loved it! I wouldn`t at my age though, dare to put my thoughts up... Had Hollywood beat years ago.. love Aunt Suellen
Posted by: suellen | June 7, 2004 02:20 AM