Another Update
I'm about to be unmasked in my pretense, so I will do it for you. I have been thoroughly honest in what I have told you, but I haven't been very thorough. (So everything I've said has been true, but it hasn't been everything.) And it's not all that bad, either, but just the same, I want to come clean before Mensch rats me out.
I've been making as if I was just fine and the radiation is not having an effect on me at all. Not quite true, but the doctors are pleased and amazed that I am doing as well as I am.
I've stayed home from work pretty much all week plus last Friday. I'm just too tired to get up, get washed and dressed and then stay up. I pretty much get up, eat, wash, dress and go back to sleep. Eat lunch, doze until it is time to go to radiation, come home, eat, sleep (or sleep, eat, sleep) and go to bed.
But the really good news is! I'm not throwing up at all! (For those of you who know me well, this is really, really good news! I hate throwing up!) The other good news that the Doctors are happy about is that my weight is remaining stable.
The sort of bad news is that I have a rotten cold. Not a terrible cold, just a rotten one. No fever, so no real problem, just enough to make me miserable and whiny.
So there, now you all know. In truth, it is actually better than I expected, so I am grateful. And Mendon won't have to feel like a tattle-tale for telling the truth. I am sorry to have deceived you, but it was for my own good.
And, to reassure you, I'm not driving myself to and from. During the first week, I was, but I noticed that I was weaving on the road one day and other cars were beeping at me, so now I have arranged other transportation.
And some really good news. I am more than half-way with my radiation. That means that I finish either on March 24 or March 27th, depending on who can count, me or the technician. I'm hoping it's her, but afraid it might be me.
Comments
I still think you're doing fine. Everyone I talk to here (Hoda, Pat) who have gone through radiation repeatedly state how this is a time for you to simply get your rest. It's okay. I sort of expected that towards the end of this chemo/rad combo you wouldn't exactly continue being "I'm fully functional Stephanie, I swear!" I'm glad you've still got driving arrangements.
As always, let me know if y'all need an extra pair of hands around. Gros bisous. Now go get some more rest. :)
Posted by: Mara | March 10, 2006 4:01 PM
Actually, maman, I wasn't going to rat you out. I knew that you were sick about three days ago when I called asking for the negra en chamise recipe. Frankly, if you're not feeling well, and don't want others to know about it, I respect that. It's ok. I love you, stay well.
Posted by: Mendon | March 10, 2006 9:04 PM
Yeah, actually, I knew, too, since I tried to call you at work but you were at home because of your cold. I had a feeling you wouldn't be returning to work for a while.
Mensch, we've changed its name to 'schmeeze'. Much less offensive.
Posted by: Mara | March 11, 2006 2:52 AM
Really, I am feeling just fine! Tired, but fine. Except for my cold. And Mensch, I think I was more worried about surprising you and having you feel like I wasn't telling the truth. No need for you to come home at this time, though I appreciate the offer, Mara.
Posted by: ma | March 11, 2006 10:50 AM
Hi all. I wanted to update everyone on Maman's health. She has a cold, it's not a bad cold by any stretch of the imagination. Maman, has cancer, that means its a terrible cold by any stretch of the imagination. Its been rough on her for the last few days.
Posted by: Mendon | March 13, 2006 12:27 AM