It's a bye week
Good news! I didn't have to have chemo today and I don't have to add one on the end. The Gemzar was so effective last week that my white blood count was too low for me to have a dose this week, but it still counts because the Gemzar is being effective.
I do have to be a little more careful about infection, but I'm dealing with it.
Okay, Okay, I'll tell the unvarnished truth! Yagotme! I'm disappointed! I think I wanted to be the model patient, do this 'perfectly.' Well, I'm doing my best. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude and stay as healthy as possible. But I have to allow the doctors and other medical staff to do their job, and respond as they see fit. I am reminded that I am not in control. I remembered that at the time of the surgery, but needed to be reminded. And I don't have to be perfect; the goal is to be alive. And, as Daddy pointed out, I'm still one week closer to 'graduation'.
Disappointed or not, I am feeling the best so far. I went to bed last night kind of dreading chemo today because it does make me feel a bit tired, and I had been feeling so energetic -- about the best I have felt since the surgery, and here, I still feel great!
I talked to Merry today and it does look like I will be doing some work at home after all. It really isn't really too practical, but she is willing to work with me so I can keep working and preserve my sick time for when I have radiation, or may need it at some other time.
On another note, I've finished Nathan's Socks". Mara and I bought this yarn when we visited 3 years ago. (I can't believe it has been that long!)
Comments
I helped! We put the yarn in balls together before your surgery. I love them. They look lovely and are a style I like...keep me in mind next time you want to make socks please!!
Posted by: Rae | December 21, 2005 11:37 PM
Great Socks! :-)
Just one day at a time, Maman, that's all we can ask of you.
I sat and had a chat with Beth Khadem yesterday. She was so happy to see me and sends you all her love. And she wants you to know you are on her prayer list in the Shrines (Penny had told her just before she left for pilgrimage). I'll tell you more in a phone call.
I love you oodles and oodles!!
Posted by: Mara | December 22, 2005 1:24 AM
Hey, Maman!
I'm happy that the treatment is working and that you're feeling better.
I'm safely in Edinburgh - and I can't wait to try on my socks! They look so cool! Great colors. Yes!
Posted by: Nathan Dornbrook | December 22, 2005 11:58 AM
Well, until I get them mailed, you can show off the picture with pride in how much your mother loves you! Won't keep you very warm, but I am avoiding the post office until after the holidays. ( Ack! Germs, germs!)
Posted by: ma | December 22, 2005 2:51 PM