Everything, Nothing, and I'm a Middle Child

I like my job. In fact, most days, I love my job. I'm so happy with it sometimes I'm surprised. People don't usually get to LIKE their job. On the other hand, I know that I only have the job for less than another two years. How do I come to terms with that? Other than the obvious - enjoy it while it lasts. How do I not think of the future? I now have expectations of enjoying my job ... I want to find something else I can enjoy as much!

There are also a few other potholes, so to speak, of enjoying the good life here in Israel. I'm fairly well taken care of here. I buy my groceries at the 'company store' if you will, only venturing out to a real grocery store - where I have to pay with real money if our Food Centre doesn't carry some special ingredient, which is amazingly rare. If something isn't working in my completely furnished apartment, I just call the Works Department (again, another part of the Baha'i World Centre) and they come fix it. Yeah, most everything I need is taken care of here. I feel like I need to remember that's not how it usually is - not 'out there' in the 'real world'.

I don't even know where I'm going with this, other than the fact that I'm a planner. And a worrier. And yet - I am so happy here! I get to work in a fabu job and then, in my free time, I can head over to the holy shrines and pray to God. Rough life. It's funny, I could be praying for eveything under the sun, but I find that I have very little to 'ask for'. I usually spend most of my time in the Shrines praying for my friends and family. Though probably my favoritest moments are when Mark and I go up to the threshold in one of the shrines together. It's the most amazingly perfect unity I have experienced with Mark, praying with him - silently - at the Threshold of our Lord.