Time heals "all" wounds.....
I am convinced that he who believes time heals all wounds has not lost the most loved one in their life....
I am not recovering or trying to anymore...
I am selfishly pursuing some measure of happiness in what remains of my life....
Balancing the spectrum of emotions is probably the hardest thing I do these days.
Work gives me purpose only when I work. Friendships seem much more shallow lately. Even with those who could be more than friends. Almost noone speaks about Stephanie in any terms now except my children and my mother. My siblings are still unable to call to see how I am doing and it has been over two years.
I also know nobody reads these blogs anymore so I can pretty much say what I _ _ _ _ _ _ _ want to. Sad but true.
Recent events indicates to me all my children are moving away now for a variety of reasons. Soon(like in a year or so) not one of them will be within a one state travel.
I have lost all of my old friends of the last forty years or so. Abandoned really. It is a sad truth. So I am focusing on a few new friends to love. So far it has been a lot of work and mostly onesided. Maybe I need to broaden my focus.
I am only blogging to bring myself up to date on a coupla issues. Who knows when next I will blog? Only the "great blogger" knows.